I saw you slip but didn't grasp
the fact
your hand
the cries for help
but now time stopped.
Every 2 AM phone call echoes
in my head
my recent calls
every song you introduced me to
but now time stopped.
The music you showed me has helped
me
to cope
with this loss
but now time stopped.
Everyday I wake up and hope for a text
a missed call
a text
an explanation
but now time stopped.
This has to be a joke
I think
feeling
grasping at the idea
but now time has stopped.
Jokes we shared were so many
funny
how this works
you're gone
but now time stopped.
Helplessly, tears slither down
my face
thinking
of you and yours
somewhere lost in space and time
was my ability lost to rhyme
your pretty face lost in the sunshine
words on a page just can't be mine
little quips lead to little quits
and our little quits lead to misprint
the droid keeps going deep in me
soul is searching, wanting some free
time activity is gone in your face
somehow were losing it; i need your taste
juxtaposition of love and hate
decomposition of desire, first rate
the unnerving question of time chimes in
devoting my life to this boy and his sin
the need to get out and the need to stay tie
one night im going to get lost in starshine
Slightly stoopid thinking
Gaining on your fears
I'm following your footsteps
Trampling your tears
Ripping out your heart
Or so you seem to say
Your collapse will not happen
You won't go out that way
A canyon full of memory
Of promises and lies
Our heads run like a waterfall
We are the same inside
These stupid little words
Falling from my lips
Are tiny little rocks
Shallow little quips
Motherfuckin' crazies
Motherfuckin' chops
You are my little daisy
To my beer, you're hops
Believe me if you will
though you probably
Remember that we're here
With this little note
Numbers erode the daybreak ahead
Tripping up this shuttered darkness
Shallow waves broke behind me
Too salty is the sea water
Metal within in me disintegrates
Damned if death ever felt this good
Beams of light drag through the mist
Laid on this beach until morning light
Let's drown into an abyss
The clocks are ticking in our blood
You don't aid, just assist
That lovely red mixture turns to mud
I'm sliced open, scarred and dripping
But blood for you desecrates slipping
Pressed to you in night time air
I've been lured into treachery, into your lair
Moon glows faintly over in shines of onyx
Your eyes, hollow, debase this silence
You wanted danger
You wanted surprise
You wanted a cover
For all of your lies
You felt your own sorrow
You felt your remorse
You felt such an anger
From an action of force
You saw the explosion
You saw my disguise
You saw this eraser
Of which I despise
Your veins began rising
Your blood pressure screamed
Your mind had to singe
But your body just gleamed.
It's cold outside, it's dead outside
Your electric fingers feel my skin
Rubbery and firm but loose
The door opens and the electric's out
I remember you for seconds
Then you vanish like a fuckin' ghost
Quicksand heart pours on the floor
But we're quick to clean that up
Your fingernails are pretty spotless
I examine them 'cross the room
Reckless endangerment is perfume
For the cold, restless air
Whisper more, baby, the cloud's forming
Cigarette ashes litter the asphalt
Your eyes glisten under the streetlight
Say you feel like experimentin'?
When I open my eyes and count to ten
The world should be free yet again
When I tap my finger to the count of nine
Please tell me your anger has resigned
Rocking back and forth to beats of eight
I hope that your fear shall disappate
Chewed my lip to bleed, chewed it seven
Take me over and you get to heaven
My nails are bitten off, but only six
Crying and pleading are not a fix
Pieces of hair fall in a scrap of five
Everyone tells you to look alive!
My head hits against the wall, count to four
Shouldn't, in conquest, be something more?
The screams in my head have drowned to mere three
When I hear your voice, first instinct's to
I saw you slip but didn't grasp
the fact
your hand
the cries for help
but now time stopped.
Every 2 AM phone call echoes
in my head
my recent calls
every song you introduced me to
but now time stopped.
The music you showed me has helped
me
to cope
with this loss
but now time stopped.
Everyday I wake up and hope for a text
a missed call
a text
an explanation
but now time stopped.
This has to be a joke
I think
feeling
grasping at the idea
but now time has stopped.
Jokes we shared were so many
funny
how this works
you're gone
but now time stopped.
Helplessly, tears slither down
my face
thinking
of you and yours
somewhere lost in space and time
was my ability lost to rhyme
your pretty face lost in the sunshine
words on a page just can't be mine
little quips lead to little quits
and our little quits lead to misprint
the droid keeps going deep in me
soul is searching, wanting some free
time activity is gone in your face
somehow were losing it; i need your taste
juxtaposition of love and hate
decomposition of desire, first rate
the unnerving question of time chimes in
devoting my life to this boy and his sin
the need to get out and the need to stay tie
one night im going to get lost in starshine
Slightly stoopid thinking
Gaining on your fears
I'm following your footsteps
Trampling your tears
Ripping out your heart
Or so you seem to say
Your collapse will not happen
You won't go out that way
A canyon full of memory
Of promises and lies
Our heads run like a waterfall
We are the same inside
These stupid little words
Falling from my lips
Are tiny little rocks
Shallow little quips
Motherfuckin' crazies
Motherfuckin' chops
You are my little daisy
To my beer, you're hops
Believe me if you will
though you probably
Remember that we're here
With this little note
Numbers erode the daybreak ahead
Tripping up this shuttered darkness
Shallow waves broke behind me
Too salty is the sea water
Metal within in me disintegrates
Damned if death ever felt this good
Beams of light drag through the mist
Laid on this beach until morning light
Let's drown into an abyss
The clocks are ticking in our blood
You don't aid, just assist
That lovely red mixture turns to mud
I'm sliced open, scarred and dripping
But blood for you desecrates slipping
Pressed to you in night time air
I've been lured into treachery, into your lair
Moon glows faintly over in shines of onyx
Your eyes, hollow, debase this silence
You wanted danger
You wanted surprise
You wanted a cover
For all of your lies
You felt your own sorrow
You felt your remorse
You felt such an anger
From an action of force
You saw the explosion
You saw my disguise
You saw this eraser
Of which I despise
Your veins began rising
Your blood pressure screamed
Your mind had to singe
But your body just gleamed.
It's cold outside, it's dead outside
Your electric fingers feel my skin
Rubbery and firm but loose
The door opens and the electric's out
I remember you for seconds
Then you vanish like a fuckin' ghost
Quicksand heart pours on the floor
But we're quick to clean that up
Your fingernails are pretty spotless
I examine them 'cross the room
Reckless endangerment is perfume
For the cold, restless air
Whisper more, baby, the cloud's forming
Cigarette ashes litter the asphalt
Your eyes glisten under the streetlight
Say you feel like experimentin'?
To Whom it May Concern -letter by panKakes91, literature
Literature
To Whom it May Concern -letter
To whom it may concern:
You will think what you will, but I want to get MY word out there. I know you think little of me, actually I'm aware its much less than that. The truth is, yes, I left when the "going got rough" as everybody loves to say. But why? Maybe because it was too rough, or maybe I just didn't want to work through it. And I cared enough to end things rather than just let us both waste time. I know I seem heartless, and sometimes I'm scared that I am. But you must remember, I don't treat every single person the same way. Or have you forgotten that I'm a selective person? I loved you, and a part of me always will in some way. I
Mutilated Humanity -poem- by panKakes91, literature
Literature
Mutilated Humanity -poem-
Society's masochistic fascination
with beauty in terms of pain,
is nothing but an excuse to mutilate an image of defection
for those whom could never appreciate the value in flaws of variation.
And by calling it perfecting we seek only the hopeless,
that which is impossible to obtain...
For humanity's vain obsession with perfection
rots itself from the inside out,
festering and decaying until all that is left
is everything a person never wanted to be,
and a vague reminder of who one could have been.
And then not even futile regrets can color the vision,
the lonely 'scapes of grey,
of the minds infected w
And the moral of the story is always the same.
Be nice to your neighbor, be good to your friends, be sweet and smile. Oh and never ever talk back. Lose weight, smile when youre sad, and smile when youre angry, smile when youre nervous and smile when youre happy. Laugh at a guys joke even when its not funny; pretend youre okay when youre not. Spend money you dont have just to make someone else happy.
Cant forget getting good grades, and being perfect. You cant get anything lower than an A+. Be a good friend, dont hate people. Be nice to people who are horrible and cruel. Hat
Stop Looking, Start Seeing by lordlossxz, literature
Literature
Stop Looking, Start Seeing
Do you see who I really am inside?
Can you see the monster that I hide?
Did you know that my every word's a lie?
If you could only see the truth you'd run away from me
If you could only see the truth you'd run away from me
But maybe I'm just too good a faker
Or maybe it's just fate to take her
Away
Have you seen who I really am inside?
Have you seen all I try to hide?
Have you learned to tell my truths from lies?
If you could only see the truth you'd run away from me
If you could only see that there's nothing left of me
'Cause baby I'm not that good a faker
Maybe it's just her fate to take my
Life
Now you see who I really am i
You're Causing a Reaction by ViolentHysteria, literature
Literature
You're Causing a Reaction
My hands reach through to your frail lips
Silence should be held in this therapy
Twilight in the California desert
This isn't going to last forever, baby.
My eyes are penetrating to your soul
Not through, but just enough to aggravate
I am a stranger to you and your life
And I will make sure to overstay my welcome.
An incendiary in this war for immersion
The beach is straining you to kiss me again
I'm going to make you tick like a bomb
I can feel your heartbeat going off like a grenade.
Close your eyes and I promise I'll lead you somewhere
It'll be something important, an agitation to your head
The sun's going down, baby, can you
The name bestowed upon me is Amanda Noelle, and I have a sense of humor similar to that of a 12 year old boy.
It's a joy to meet you.
Current Residence: Chicagoland. Favourite genre of music: Alternative;Indie;Techno;Euro;Punk. Favourite style of art: Surrealist. Personal Quote: The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will. [palahniuk]
That sound of a phone off the hook, angrily honking at you
How curious.
Alright. I'm trying again. Time is once again my friend.
thanks for the support everyone.
I have been writing lately, but only in a notebook. I'm still editing some and deciding what to put up here, if any.
Recently, I made a tryptich (which I probably just misspelled) so I'm going to put that as a new ID. for the fun of it.
Figure I should just let everyone know I might be coming back :D
I give up on my pathetic attempt to be an artist.
The plan is to take down all that I have on here and copy it onto my home computer then delete my account.
Thanks everyone for the great three (? maybe three) years I've been on here.
I'm still keeping my account to watch others.
<3
Amanda